Time is running out

It’s been quite a while since I’ve posted an update.

From a pure triathlon perspective – things haven’t been going as well as planned.  Raw strength wise (FTP + VDOT) I am in pretty good shape.  My FTP is within a decent range of the estimate pre-IMWI, and the VDOT isn’t great, but it’s not embarrassing.

Fitness wise (CTL) I am quite a ways behind last year, I have just been having a lot of issues in training with regards to consistancy.  I haven’t been able to get up for the morning swims with any reliability, and many days my heart is not into it when I get done with work.  Unfortunately for me, the clock is ticking and the time I have until some important races show up is getting smaller and smaller.

Fortunately, I like nice round numbers, symmetry, and having all things be equal.  Next week is exactly 12 weeks until the Triple-T.  That gives me 2×6 week cycles to get things back into normal.

You didn’t come here to read me whine, or feel sorry for myself did you though?  Here is a tidbit to make your reading worthwhile.

When going through life, and you find yourself having a difficult time doing things you formerly enjoyed, or maybe simply have a hard time motivating yourself to accomplish something.  Don’t get mad at yourself, or assume it is time to move on.  STOP. Think about what challenges your life has presented you with over the past year or two, and examine them for a possible impact on your enjoyment of X. 

• Did something happen to tarnish the memory of X? 
• Did something happen that tarnishs your enjoyment of X? 
• Did something happen that shifted your values, and X no longer has the place of priority it once did?

I think what you will find is that something in life did one of those three things (or something similar), and it’s not really time for you to move on from X, but to simply take a step back and be honest about the level of impact that some event had in your life.

The last few weeks/months have seen me develop a frustration over my lack of commitment to triathlon, but I took a step back and realized it was not my enjoyment of triathlon that was suffering, but it was really my lack of coping with a life experience that was distracting me from triathlon.

IOW – I was to busy trying to not be sorry for myself, that I was developing additional reasons to be sorry for myself about, so I could ignore the true reason.

“The chief cause of failure and unhappiness is trading what we want most for what we want in the moment.”